I have some new pix to post, but first a serious posting.
I got home from work last night and found the wife in a bad mood. Not until we sat down to eat did it all come out. She had used my computer to print something out and stumbled across this blog--apparently. (She never said entirely where her info had come from.) She challenged me on my dressing and my dishonesty about it. I tried to explain that my desire to keep it a secret was a sincere desire to avoid flaunting before her a part of me she found distasteful.
I attempted to explore with her exactly what she disliked about crossdressing and it kept coming back to my dishonesty. I never really got an answer, I think, as to why she cannot countenance my dressing. She's ordinarily a very open person...she has many gay friends, including a former mentor in her career. She supports gay marriage. I know it's not a form of homophobia.
She has asked if I want to be a woman. Those of you who read this blog know that is the last thing I'm interested in. I've tried to convince her of it. She notes that I am happier working from home than anywhere else. Yes, I respond, but that has nothing to do with the dressing...it has to do with my distaste for the corporate way of life.
I talked about my dressing as part of my creative urge, but she didn't seem to buy it. Yet I really feel that is a major part of my desire to dress--to create an image and make it believable. It's why I was able to satisfy the urge for 30 years by writing and drawing about it.
We're at something of an impasse here. I have promised not to lie when she questions my dressing...but neither am I prepared to be completely open to her about it, knowing she doesn't understand it.
Any thoughts and advice would be appreciated.